Nip this, tuck that

Home again, home again, jiggity jig!

Tummy tuck today with the same surgeon/place I had my breast lift 1.5 years ago. Well technically not. Same surgeon, Dr. Usha Rajagopal, but my surgeon's surgicenter is under construction so she's performing her surgeries at a different surgicenter several LARGE city blocks away. Chris and I weren't nearly as impressed with this place as we were with Dr. Usha's in-house facility and amazing staff but, all told, it was still a perfectly fine experience. Dr. Usha's patients are just extremely spoiled by her surgical staff and accomodations, in my opinion. I know I am. :)

Very very sore (tighted muscle girdle) and icky drains but shot full of Demerol and propped in bed. I love love love my surgeon. She removed 2lbs of skin and lipo'd out 1lb of fat, some of which she purified and reinjected into my face to restore some lost "youth' (stolen from weight loss). I have marks all over me I can't seem to get off though, not with soap, mineral oil, makeup remover, nuthin.' Grr. (Where's the Goo-Gone? Maybe WD-40?). Ooooh, and did I mention...I have a brand new belly button? Hrm. I guess it's the same belly button but it got put into a new hole and got re-centered (it had gone off-sides when Julia was IN MAH BELLEH veering off to towards my right side).

BUT the best part: finally, after two days of antibacterial surgical wash on my body/face and no grooming products allowed, deodorant and moisturizer is *such* bliss! :)

OK. Blogging on Demerol is a bit of a challenge so I'm gonna go before I have to untangle my fingers and/or hit my head on the desk passing out. Me, my puffy face and lack of tummy signing off.

Champagne wishes and Vicodin dreams, mah peeps! xoxo

p.s. Drains...are the hardcore NASTAY.

p.p.s. None of these pics or links to pics are of me or anything attached to me. I'll do us ALL a favor and wait for the good lookin' "after" shots, m'kay? ;)

Puppy feets, don't fail me now!

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...and sweet little banana-slug puppy tails!

Their bodies are so round and their legs are still so short they just sort of roll around, all manatee-like.

I love to watch the puppies. I'm not a dog person in the least but for some reason watching these puppies, like their earlier siblings, just makes me happy. The puppies will fill my days now that the Savoyards Mikado is over (I sang chorus from the pit, and painted the dragons), and those same puppies will keep me company while I convalesce from my tummy tuck surgery on February 8th. As will the Winter Olympics. I timed the surgery to the Olympics. The puppies... Well, that was just a happy accident. :)

Ok.

I only have one New Year's Resolution. Which is ironic considering I don't believe in them and smirk/snark in my haughty, bitchy way at anyone who says they make them. But a single resolution I indeed duz haz. And that resolution is this:

Blog regularly again.

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Even if it's just a quick jog of a thought here and there. Even if it's gibberish. Even if I don't have time to spell-check it or be uber-obsessive/compulsive about it like I usually am (the HORROR). Even if it's 4-fucking:30 in the morning, like it is now. Just do it.

Why? Because it's good for me. I stopped doing it because my life got unbearably painful in the past year and it was hard enough living through it the first time, and then explaining it to relevant and/or nosey people in person ad nauseum. I certainly didn't want to relive it *yet again* by immortalizing it in print here or anywhere. It simply hurt too much. And before I could get a handle on one bit of hurt, something new to wince about would happen. The pain just kept compounding, and before I knew it, everything started coming at me so fast I couldn't keep up with it to write it all down without "IT" becoming a novel. So, easier to either swallow it or just close my eyes and let it wash over.

But I'm home now. It's a new year. We're working on creating a new marriage. So I'm going to try and start fresh. I deposited a lot of my pain in 2009. Decades worth, in fact.

I feel a lot lighter now.

batman on drugs

Cannot express how much I love this. So i won't. Just, HERE ya go.
(now...how do I make it my new ringtone...)

Latest pic & news

Red hair and a new steel necklace for me from Chris. Pretty pretty shiny things. Yay!






















In other news, my landlord has found a couple to rent the place and who want to move in by Jan. 1. Actually they wanted to move in by Dec. 20 but that was too early even for me. Sooo, my official move-out date is Dec. 29th. Eeeps! No more rent! Yays! This whole protracted nightmare just *might* be over. Wow.

The Newest News

Chris and I are attempting to reconcile. Seems to be working so far. Not going to say more cuz I don't want to jinx it. ;)

I've moved back into the house and am trying to get out from under my 6-month lease in my 1bd/1ba townhouse in San Jose. If the owner can rent it out before my lease is up, cool. Otherwise, I'm stuck making payments on a place I'm not living in until the end of March 2010. Oy.

Stay tuned.

Find The Fish

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So much has changed. Where to even begin? OK, just the gist:

• Chris and I have separated but are trying very hard to preserve our friendship
  
  
• Julia is now in public school, and apparently failing (only because she doesn't turn in the work)
  
  
• I'm living in my own place now while Chris and Julia are still living in our old house
  
  
• I'm waiting for my disability hearing, which is scheduled for October 23. Hope to receive disability benefits and supplement with freelance work as I can get it

I'm very sad at the turn of events but I have had lots of wonderful support from friends and family. I'll hopefully post more as I continue to emerge from this heavy fog. It's been one hell of a crappy summer.